Christine

Never felt sad on my last day over at THKL… I guess this is because I don’t really enjoy the working environment there. I hate to have politic in my work place… I have no idea why my boss being so bitchy to me after her secret vacation during Chinese New Year, I guess it is because of our personal life. But I always believe on her professionalism, always thought that she will not bring any of her personal issue to work. But I think I am wrong this time… She is totally not professional, I don’t think she is suitable to be in this position. Hotel is not a playground for all of us, we should leave all our personal issue aside while working and concentrate guest as our main focus. Nevertheless, I am very pleased to have all my lovely colleagues who help and assisted me during my time in the hotel. I really enjoy the time we have spend through together since the first day we joined Traders as pre-opening team. I really love to work with you guys. I will miss all of you.

This is the 3rd funeral that i had in my family in year 2007, why all of u keep leaving us, i understand that this is life but why it must be together? I am tired with all this…. 2007 is really a bad year for my family member. Hope it can pass quickly.. Grandpa i hope that the new place will be good and peaceful for u…. Now I only left my beloved grandma… the only one… Pls stay with us longer because i had lost my 3 beloved grandparents in this year within half year time… sad sad and sad….

No mood to work today,

My grandpa is suffering in Coma

Visit him at hospital yesterday

Seeing him lying down there and suffering on the pain

Make me feel so sad, but I can’t do anything’s for him…

As what doctor said I hope the miracle will come soon…

May God bless u, be tough we are all here to support u…

Is already almost a month that he had left us…..

And is already three month that she had left us…..

Hope this place is nice & peaceful for both of u….

Will keep both of u in my heart forever….

There wouldn’t be a chance that grandma asking us whether wanna have porridge or milo already….. Is now our turn to do it for both them…..

Why must i being so bad luck recently……

Family problem, work problem (all are just attack me in a same time)…….

could i have a break……

could i just stay away from the world…..

without knowing what is happening out there….

i need a peaceful life…….

Why must i responsible for people mistake……

One after one, i wouldn’t know when will be the next…..

And when will be the last………

Could i say that it will be the best solution if i quit my job….

I really hope that we can pause our life sometimes……

Is was a bad year 2007………… I lost both my beloved grandmum and grandfather within 3 months time…. one on 08 April 2007 then follow by 20 June 2007 My grandfather pass away after the celebration of fathers day last week, that was the last time that i saw him smile……. the moment will always stay in my memory. we will never have a chance to celebrate all the event’s with them again….. will miss the reunion dinner that we have on every new year eve with them…… I really hate year 2007….. things wasn’t goes smooth…. Hope things will goes smooth soon

If time can turn back, i hope that we are best friend forever……   

It’s too late to realize on this, however i did enjoy the time when

we are together, let’s keep this sweet memory with us forever. I

give up doesn’t mean that i don’t love you anymore but i am just

tired in this relationship. I understand that "It will be yours, if it is

means to be yours". We been tying so hard to be together but the

ending is not the happy one as well. I hate you for making me

unhappy but at the same time i need to appreciate you cause from

this i had learn to think even mature and will be smarter when

handle my next relationship. A word of encouragement  for myself

"不管再难走的路或遇到再多的挫折, 笑一笑没有什么大不了的".

And a advise for you protect urself is good, but u must know

how to care on others your love one, family or even your

friend. Don’t be too selfish, seeing people around you happy

will make you even happier. Trust me. Wish you all the best…………..

The act of loving someone can hurt us so deeply…

It hurts to know that my beloved grandma pass away suddenly…
It hurts because i didn’t get that chance to say my last loving words to her…

It hurts to know that my aunty pass away after 2 weeks of my grandma funeral…
It is hurts to know that my uncle was crying so badly….

It hurts when my beloved decided to further his study in US….
It hurts when he ignore me before he leave simply because he is being too stress, what i need is just more time before he leave…
It hurts because we have been together for quite sometimes and now i feel like he is going to disappear from my world..

It hurts when the trust between us was gone…
It hurts to fall for someone you so desire but he doesn’t response much…

It just hurt so deeply… i am so… so… tired of loving… i felt like giving up on love…

Why if i may ask? Is love that difficult?

Is this my vocation… is this my learning… of learning of how to love unconditionally… of learning of how to love without expectation in return… is this the highest form of love that i must master… will i have to continue such learnings until i’ve got it… ???

Well, i guess this is the first time i am sharing with you my inner most feelings… and it makes me shed a tear as i write the above because it is so painful… but i just want to let you know that i love you all unconditionally…!!!