Christine

If time can turn back, i hope that we are best friend forever……   

It’s too late to realize on this, however i did enjoy the time when

we are together, let’s keep this sweet memory with us forever. I

give up doesn’t mean that i don’t love you anymore but i am just

tired in this relationship. I understand that "It will be yours, if it is

means to be yours". We been tying so hard to be together but the

ending is not the happy one as well. I hate you for making me

unhappy but at the same time i need to appreciate you cause from

this i had learn to think even mature and will be smarter when

handle my next relationship. A word of encouragement  for myself

"不管再难走的路或遇到再多的挫折, 笑一笑没有什么大不了的".

And a advise for you protect urself is good, but u must know

how to care on others your love one, family or even your

friend. Don’t be too selfish, seeing people around you happy

will make you even happier. Trust me. Wish you all the best…………..

The act of loving someone can hurt us so deeply…

It hurts to know that my beloved grandma pass away suddenly…
It hurts because i didn’t get that chance to say my last loving words to her…

It hurts to know that my aunty pass away after 2 weeks of my grandma funeral…
It is hurts to know that my uncle was crying so badly….

It hurts when my beloved decided to further his study in US….
It hurts when he ignore me before he leave simply because he is being too stress, what i need is just more time before he leave…
It hurts because we have been together for quite sometimes and now i feel like he is going to disappear from my world..

It hurts when the trust between us was gone…
It hurts to fall for someone you so desire but he doesn’t response much…

It just hurt so deeply… i am so… so… tired of loving… i felt like giving up on love…

Why if i may ask? Is love that difficult?

Is this my vocation… is this my learning… of learning of how to love unconditionally… of learning of how to love without expectation in return… is this the highest form of love that i must master… will i have to continue such learnings until i’ve got it… ???

Well, i guess this is the first time i am sharing with you my inner most feelings… and it makes me shed a tear as i write the above because it is so painful… but i just want to let you know that i love you all unconditionally…!!!